Most people see an agnostic as somebody who doesn’t think there is enough evidence one way or another to settle the question “Is there a God.”
I want to be really clear here:
I’m stretching this definition, a little. I don’t have any doubt whatsoever that God exists, that He is love, and that Jesus Christ was His son in a wholly unique way.
That said, there are some issues that I don’t think there is enough evidence on, either way. There are some issues that I am agnostic about. God’s existence isn’t one of them.
Homosexuality, however, is an issue I’m agnostic on.
I’d go so far as to say I’m not sure that I’ll ever have enough information, in this life, to satisfactorily take a strong position on these issues.
Let me clarify what I am unsure on. And then I will explain why I’m unsure of it.
I am unsure whether homosexual acts are acceptable with God.
I am unsure of how much God will hold accountable people who have never heard of him. Or people who have only had negative interactions with Christians.
I say these things knowing that I’m going to tick off dear friends on both sides of these issues. I invite them to post below. But I have to say, all false modesty aside, I’m pretty sure I know most of the research, scripture verses, and arguments on both sides of these issues.
Here’s what I don’t know:
I don’t know what it’s like to be attracted to somebody of my gender.
I know that I am attracted to women. I know that this feels like the way I was born. I know that it would be a major stumbling block if somebody told me that in order to be a good Christian, I had to not-be attracted to women.
We can play semantic games all day long. We can say “It’s not the homosexual feelings, it’s the homosexual acts that are the sin.” One of the problems with this claim, though, is that it’s an awfully big exception. In virtually every other area we recognize that Jesus said it’s the condition of our heart that matters. He quite specifically said that if we lust in our heart we’ve already comitted adultry.
I know that there are a number of passages of scripture that appear to condemn homosexuality. I know that there are a variety of quite sophisticated arguments disputing these. I know that on the surface, though, they appear to say that homosexuality is wrong.
I end up at this point shrugging my shoulders. Back where I started, basically.
What is most important is I know that God is not a trickster. He isn’t out to decieve us. He is love. He wants us to understand.
I can’t believe that so many people would be made one way, and then would have to live in denial. Not just deny the acts. But somehow figure out a way to deny the desire itself.
There are two possibilities. I am not in any position to have any clue which is the truth. I would have to be inside the heart and soul of someone who is gay to really know.
One possibility is that the wrongness of homosexuality is sensed by those who are gay. Somewhere, deep inside, they know what they are doing is wrong.
The other possibility is that it isn’t wrong, at all.
The alternative seems incomprehensible to me. That people would be expected to figure out that they need to deny themselves, but not have any real way of figuring out. God is loving and just and fair.