Doing It Well

My day starts at 5:40.

Five forty is a brutal time in Winter in New England.  It’s cold.  and dark.  And did I mention it’s cold?  Frickin’ cold.  Tundra cold.  Brutal cold.  (And did I mention it’s dark?…)  And I’m tired…

But contrary to appearances, I’m not writing this post to whine.

I commute with my aide.  We take the turnpike to work.  You may know that on a turn pike, you get the ticket marked with where you enter and pay based on how far you take it.

Most mornings, there is this woman who gives us a ticket.  Since I’m the passenger (and usually tired) I’m not positioned to actually see her.  And her voice sounds a tiny bit like Marge Simpsons sisters. 

But every morning she offers us the most hearty and friendly hello.  It’s the first happy and good thing that happens almost every day of my life.  (Perhaps there would be other things early but I’m too asleep to notice…)  It’s rather stupid, it’s a small thing, but I almost look foreward to hearing her greeting each day.

Sometimes I struggle with the idea that we ought to do everything we can for God.  Intellectually, I understand that it doesn’t matter if we’re cleaning toilets or operating on somebody’s brain; we ought to bring enthusiasm to whatever it is.   On a practical level, I struggle with living this out.

I don’t know anything about that ticket-passing-out woman.  I don’t know if she knows God.  I don’t know if she’s able to be that friendly for her whole shift.  I don’t know her name.

But I know that it would be easy for her to grunt as we drive up.  I know that it’s not easy to be cheerful in the cold.  I know that she is a living, breathing embodiment of doing everything, no matter what it is, with excellence.

Some of the most outstanding people I know bring joy and excellence to everything they do.  I imagine that they sometimes wonder if it is worth it.  I bet they wonder if it is noticed.

Who ever you are reading this, if you are one of these people, thank you.   These “little” things can impact people, people who you never know.  They are worth it.  They do change things.


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The stories that speak to our soul begin at a home where things are good. Cinderella is happy with her father. The three little pigs have grown up and are ready to move on. Bilbo Baggins knows his shire. Adam and Eve walk with God in the garden. My story isn’t much different. There was a time and a place where it was so good. There was a community for me. And there was joy. We were filled with a sincere desire to do what God wanted us to do. We possessed explanations and understandings that went a certain distance. We offered security and tradition and laughter. For a lot of years, that was enough. I have this sense that it was also necessary. I have this surety, now, that it certainly wasn’t everything. There were some things that became increasingly problematic as time went by. There was a desire to package things up so very neatly. Sunday morning services were efficient and strategic. Responses to differences of opinion were premeditated. Formula began to feel more important than being real. A real desire for everybody to be one of us, but also a real sense that there is an us, and there is a them. They carried a regret that it has to be this way, but deeper than this regret was a surety that this is how it is. I began to recognize that there was a cost of admission to that group. There were people who sat at the door, collecting it. Those people wished they didn’t have to. But I guess they felt like they did have to. They let some people in, and they left others out. There was a provisional membership. My friends did possess a desire to accommodate people that are different… But it would be best for everyone concerned if they were only a little bit different. I did make many steps forward in this place. Before I went there, there were lies that I believed. Some of the things that I learned there, I still hold on to. But that place is not my home anymore. Those people are not my community anymore. There were times it was hard. I am engaged in a different community now. And I am working hard at finding a place in many different places now, embracing many different kind of families. I don’t always get it right. I am trying and I am learning and I am moving foreward. I have this sense that I am not alone in these experiences. I believe that we are tribe and we are growing. We are pilgrims, looking for a new holy land. Perhaps we won’t settle on the same spot of land. But if you’ve read this far, I am thinking that we are probably headed in the same general direction. I have begun this blog to talk about where my journey is taking me. In every space, we find people who help us along. And maybe we can get to know each other, here. We embrace ideas that provide a structure for the things we believe, and perhaps we can share these too. Maybe we can form a group, a tribe, a community, if we can figure out a way to work through the shadow of these kinds of groups, if we can bigger than the us-and-them ideas that have caused so much trouble in the past. As important as they are, I think the very nature of online interactions will lend itself to something equally powerful. I am stumbling onto these practices that my grandfathers and great grandfathers in the faith engaged in. I am learning about these attitudes and intuitions are so different than the kinds of things we call doctrine today. I don’t know about you, but I am running out of patience, and even interest, in conversations about doctrine. I hope that maybe you’ll share a little something about where your journey is taking you, and maybe our common joys and challenges might help each other along, and we might lift each other up. Thanks for doing this journey with me.

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