When Paul was contronted on the road to Damuscus, he said, “Who are you, Lord?”
It’s interesting. Clearly there was something extraordinary about the encounter. It’s unclear if Paul was blind at this point of a moment later. But he must have realized something was going down, he must have realized he was in the presence of greatness, otherwise, he would not have ended the question with the word, “Lord.”
And yet, he’d spent his whole life seeking out God. He had the scriptures memorized. He lived by exhausting, exacting laws. He was filled with fire and felt like he was doing God’s will as he persecuted the early Christians.
I wonder what it was like. He’s no dummy. He must have– just at that moment– realized that his entire life had been basically a farce. He must have realized– just at that moment– that he was face-to-face with the object he’d been seeking for his whole life. The fact that he asks who it is though indicates that he realized he’d been barking up the wrong tree, that he never really got it at all.